Life is a funny little thing, wouldn't you say? The last few years of my life have been a crazy roller coaster and while many would want to settle and be happy the only thing I ever seem to want is constant improvement and change.
Just over a week ago I very quickly made one of the biggest decisions of my life; to quit my job, move home to my parents house and leave everything I had created behind. I have never been so happy as I have been since I decided to move to London yet I am going to turn my back on it. My reason for doing so is a lack of inspiration from working in a shop (what a surprise) and my need to chase all these crazy dreams I have.
I hadn't realised how trapped and stuck in a routine I had been until a spot of bother made me realise what a mad life I was living. I am going to move home at the end of next month in the hope of interning my way into a magazine and achieving some of the high hopes I have for my life. These range from wanting to present on radio and television to being an editor of a massive music magazine to little things like providing a stage and audience for all the amazing bands I adore who don't get the credit they deserve.
If you were to ask me what my biggest dream in life is I would very quickly reply with the answer of wanting to present Glastonbury for the BBC. It seems silly and like something I could never achieve, but somebody has to do it each year and it might as well be me.
All this has made me wake up and take stock of what is precious and to me that is my family, friends, good memories and making dreams come true. Anything else is an amazing added bonus. I used to be so full of ideas when I was younger and I have felt that slip away while at University and ever since, but in the last week it has all come back to me with a burning passion I haven't felt in years.
I want to change everything. I want to cut my hair, dye my hair, get new tattoos and piercings, change the way I dress, loose a stone, buy a bike, take care of my money, be a tidy person, see more of the world, laugh with friends and celebrate the important things with my family. I have felt so bogged down and now I feel alive again and like I could set the world on fire if I just tried that little bit harder.
A wonderful college teacher called Erika once said to me "Robyn you could be amazing but your stuck in second gear and you need to drive in fifth". At the time I probably tutted and thought she was being silly but that was nearly six years ago and that sentence has always stuck with me. I am so excited for all the things I know I can do, and do well, just give me some time and I will show you what I am made of.